'But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.'
Do not get discouraged and mistake God's patience for his absence. His timing is always perfect. I know it gets very hard and frustrating just waiting and not knowing what else to do. You may even give up praying or getting close to God because you may be wondering what difference does it make anyway. Nothing seems to be changing for the better so why bother.
Bros & Sis PLEASE do not give in to the tricks of the devil. I have been there, just tired, unmotivated, felt deceived by my Pastor, church folks, just at a sad, blank, stagnant place in life with no idea of what else to do. The one thing I can say is I am so used to praying that through misery even if I just say the 'Grace' or read a Psalm, I always try to. It just makes me feel somehow complete, or fulfilled. Now I am in no way trying to make this sound easy or 'more holier' because quite honestly it is NOT. I became angry, disobedient, but then all it did was bring me more guilt and misery. I wanted OUT and I knew that only through God could I achieve that because even though it hasn't happened to me, I have seen it happen to others. I have heard peoples testimony's. I wanted what they achieved so I fought hard. I am still fighting... If they can do it so can I. I tried my best to FIGHT through it and looked for new ways to renew my faith, my strength in the Lord. No matter how angry you get he is the ONLY way. I became an orphan and lost it all to almost being homeless within a year so for me God is my only hope, source of joy, my life, my anchor. Am I mad? I have my moments, it's a process, but I believe God does things to strengthen you. My relationship with him now is 100X better than what it was before. I trust his plan for my life...
How did I get back on track? I decided to go to a new church just to get out of familiarity after weeks of being bedridden due to depression. It was the BEST thing I ever did, what a breath of fresh air. I was so blessed by the service that I regretted my anger towards God but the fact that I got out of bed that Sunday morning was a blessing in its own. God had a plan for me. Coincidentally, the Pastor preached about 'Guilt' and how we should be rest assured that the blood of Jesus that was shed on the cross for us has cleansed us from all of our sins. All we need to do is plead the blood of Jesus when the devil trys to bring up our past sins or when you are in that silent rotten season with no way out, simply just keep pleading the blood of Jesus, in deep meditation with no distractions. Remember this is your only prayer, your lifeline so take it seriously. Meditate on the pain and suffering that Christ suffered on the cross for us... Plead the blood of Jesus upon your adversity, storm, sins, crisis and allow God to do his work.
Remember to always find ways to renew your strength in the Lord. Get up and FIGHT. Resist the devil and trust me, getting out of bed and going to a new Church was like placing a brand new engine in a car, or installing new batteries. We all have different situations but if I can do it, so can you. I am still in the process so lets ride through this together, we are victorious in Jesus name ♥
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